Author Archives: christine

You have to keep trying, keep working on being present, keep dealing with present uncomfortable feelings, keep building new habits that focus on in-the-moment presence and contentment and gratitude, all while you are still working on accepting the uncomfortable feelings that have made a home in your mind. You have to just keep going. AndContinue reading “It’s annoying how much work it takes to improve yourself.”

Right, so, stupid adderall. I don’t have a problem with it, not addicted, taking it as prescribed, but I wanna be off. But I recognize that it changes and has changed my brain chemistry, and I can’t afford to deal with a week or a month or more of feeling lethargic. So, attempting to researchContinue reading “Weaning off adderall with the help of supplements.”

I last wrote about my struggle adjusting to a long distance relationship, as well as getting myself off adderall. Oh, ya, and nicotine. Homeboy and I had a talk yesterday, and I broke down. He was out of quarantine, loving his new life, and I was rapidly feeling deprioritized. A small thing, but I rememberContinue reading “Adjusting to a long-distance relationship while one person is lonely and one is flourishing.”

I’ve been dating J. for 11 months, and he is 3 weeks into a 6 month trip to Thailand and I’m fighting it, I’m sad, I’m jealous that he gets to experience all this new stuff and be surrounded all day with people who are adjusting to their new normal life while I have toContinue reading “September 12”

Yesterday I shared a glimpse of the history between my mom and I, and I’ve been thinking about our relationship a lot. I see figuring out the knots to untangle in this relationship is likely one of the healthiest things I can do for my mental wellbeing. A massive life milestone that many, well, mostContinue reading “April 29”

Today is my mom’s birthday. Call your mom. When I look back at my history, a lottt of the trauma and mind drama that I deal with today came from this relationship. I spent years angry with my mom, annoyed with my mom, blaming my mom…. not liking my own mom. I recently had aContinue reading “April 28”

Well yesterday was first day of my STRONG 30 program! My goals: W – Water & Caffeine : minimum of 2 qts. water ; aim to reduce caffeine intake to 200 mg by end of 30 days A – Alcohol & Addy : no alcohol during week, no more than 30 mg of Adderall throughoutContinue reading “April 26”

Today we are starting “Strong 30” – which is a program I made up 🙂 Since I picked up bad COVID habits (smoking, drinking, being massive sad girl)… I’ve decided to revamp my life and suck up 30 days of work in hopes of kick starting healthier habits. Maybe you don’t smoke, maybe you (alsoContinue reading “April 26”

Today’s the day I try again. As COVID hit in 2020, I slowly took to cigarettes, then nicotine replacements like mints and gum, then vapes, then back to cigarettes. I quit for a month and then, in a moment of weakness, gave in and doubled down on them HARD. Today, I try again. I don’tContinue reading “April 5”