Happy pre-Valentine’s Day! Happy Friday junior! What a day, what a life.
I’e been averaging 6.2 – 6.5 hours of sleep a night and honestly think I could sleep more but I’ve been prioritizing workouts over everything. Which I think is okay for now, I’ve never been so obsessed with working out. My favorite “non-scale victory” is that I genuinely am beginning to feel inspired to eat (mostly) well because I’m already seeing progress in my physique from working out and want to see how much improvement I can give to myself if I focus on diet, the part I’ve always struggled with. Not going crazy with it or anything, and still not eating totally clean, but I’m really focusing on upping my protein intake. But I am a little tired.
Shutting my eyes on the bus in between every paragraph I’m writing lol. So, ya, little tired.
While I was getting ready this morning, I was streaming Tim Ferris’ podcast episode with the absolute angel, Brene Brown. Everything she says is awesome. But I stopped at a few parts. Three I will pass along here.
- A question, posed by both: what is the line between self-acceptance and complacency? I think about this a lot, too. Like sometimes I want to be lazy. Other times I want to take on the world. How do you manage the balance? Tim mentioned setting up time for both. I think that is a fine way to embrace my sloth and superstar side.
- Tim’s quote: if you resist, it persists. I think for so long I had fought against my “bad” habits and felt shame from them, so maybe the approach is more acceptance?
- Brene on narcissism, which I am scared I have. She says it is the most shame based personality disorder and rooted in the ear of being ordinary. “Narcissism is not about self-love, it’s about grandiosity driven by high performance and self-hatred.” SOUNDS RIGHT lmao.
Okay I have a headache so I’m peacing out. Went on what I thought was a date last night with a guy I’ve crushed on for a bit but guess what? ENGAGED. But he still giving the ~vibes~ you know? Asking to see my place (nope), asking to see me again for drinks (nope), asking how I got so pretty (thank you, but eff you). Shitty.
In love and loss,
christine
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