Wrote part of this on the 17th, but life and a concert kept me from posting.
The date from the other night was fine. ‘A’ as we will call him was fine. We talked a lot about the weather and cooking. Which are not my favorite topics, but he himself…so nice.
Last night I got 6 hours of sleep which feels amazing and needed but I’m still stuffy and annoyed over it. I want to be one of those people that can fall asleep anywhere.
My sis can do it, why did that gene skip me? I want it. Gimme.
Today is Friday, it’s 7:30 (note: editing now, it is Saturday at 1:15), I’m en route to Bellevue to work out before another day of training the new guy while also trying to balance my entire job. Listening to the Mac Miller Circles album. Gentle start to the day.
Here’s what the workout today is looking like:
Strength: 5 RFT (rounds for time)
-400 m run
-u7 push-ups
-5 split jerks with 15-20 lb dumbbells, each side
-10 alternating lunges with 15-20 lb dumbbells
Treadmill: 30 min. with increasing speed
-3 min at 5.5, 5.8, 6.0, 6.3, 6.6., 6.9, 7.2, 7.5, 7.8, 8.1
And then I shower and work. And let’s see. What kind of motivation can I drum up for a final day of work this week.
I have been thinking a lot about living with intention. And waste. Because the physical waste we leave actually has a physical trail. It’s undeniable. It’s your own pile of crap. I wonder if the same can be said or found for energy we put out. Like throughout a day. Can I find ways to smooth out energy levels for sustained work rather than sprints leading to energy trash. Idk. Maybe the concept has legs but kinda sounds dumb to me.
BCJ + SRG (I’m trying real hard to use fake names so this whole thing doesn’t bite me in the butt locally) are going to the Cold War Kids concert tonight. Muy muy excited.
Okay now I got to the part where my writing from Friday is gone. I am sitting on my butt trying to convince my body that I am not actually sick while watching Brittany Runs a Marathon. Munich friend is in town, and I want a night out with him. We always have great conversations about philosophy and life, and I love how those conversations stretch me. Also gets me thinking about the requirements I have for people to be in my life. I would like to work to helping all my friends raise the bar in self-love and self-acceptance and positive impact.
Deleted and re-downloaded Snapchat around 100 times so I can try to ween myself off of sending pics.
I think I’m going to try to focus more on visualizing goals. I think that’s supposed to work. Yesterday’s workout was such a freaking butt kicker but I do remember having a thought at one point, maybe when speed was reaching 7.5 or so. Which – by the way – holding speeds between 7 and 8 mph for 15 min is HARD. But I remember trying to re-frame as “new normal” and “I can do this” and I mean like, I had to stop to breathe, but mindset and visualization, man….it might be key.
But real talk, I think I’ve gained some weight. So going to try really hard to reel in my nutrition because everything else is kinda falling into place. Like, work. Hard but going well. Nails are strong and growing for the first time. And friends, I love them. But bad food is my fallback. The last demon I have to crush. Trying to reframe it as I *want* to eat the healthy option and not I *should.* Still want Buffalo Wild Wings though.
90 min slow run today. I cannot wait. Screw this cold.
C-B-Doing Thangs 