January 8

I am so sick of waking up at 4 AM so I googled it to try to find out if other people have this issue but everything I got were these like inspirational “why you should wake up at 4 am every day” articles. Like, no, I do not need to see how my life will improve by waking up for 30 days at 4 AM because for some stupid reason my body wants to anyways and I will tell you I AM EXHAUSTED so don’t bait me with this productivity bullhack.

Gonna go cheat on chess and then take a call and will resume today’s journal post shortly.


I back! It’s 11 PM, I thought I lost this draft post, and I have a lot to tell. Look at me go!

San Diego man (we like him, but we don’t like the distance) being the absolute sweetheart he is sent me via text a TED talk of Bill Burnett, head of Stanford’s Design Thinking department and talking about life design. There were some hot takes lol.

  1. No plan for your life will survive the first test with reality
  2. Having a life passion is one of our society’s great dysfunctional beliefs
  3. There is nothing to gain by focusing on being “the best”
  4. Life is not linear: it’s not like step by step things get better, sometimes we have to deal with unfortunate circumstances.

And the whole time during this presentation the dude is laughing, he’s cracking jokes, like he genuinely is having a blast up there. And I gotta say, it makes you feel good reconigzing that so many people approach him with these issues that I, also, just like a student at Stanford, am struggling with.

But all answers and points he made were so human. Like instead of focusing on being the best, chasing the best, set yourself up a little better for success – just focus on wherever you are as a starting point for the very simple and key reason that that is where you are.

He had this image with 3 dots. 1 for who you are, 1 for what you do, and 1 for what you believe. Connecting the dots equals more “meaning making” which sounds a lot more fulfilling than an endless, sprawling search for passion.

Am I the only one who at this point is feeling like his reframing is helping already…?

Then, as I would expect of any institution that I would be intimidated to apply to, the dude starts talking about multiverses. Ya, why not take this metaphysical.

I’ll pick up here tomorrow. My tummy hurts and I am tired.

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